War and Healing

While war is raging in Gaza and southern Israel, ironically Jerusalem, where I live is one of the most quiet and safe places to be in right now. But everyone is talking about it, why it's justified, unjustified, how many they killed and how many we killed, as if all of this matters. All we are doing is creating war among ourselves when what we should be doing is uniting and loving each other through hard times so that our love overflows and becomes an example to the world, and to the other side. But our automatic tendency is to fight, protect our self identity, whether it's national or the ego-self.

I refuse to be at war. Period. By this I mean in my personal life as well as fighting against people that are culturally different than me, for whatever reason. But as we know, our personal wars, within ourselves, mind and body, within our homes, families and communities reflect outwards and create a war mongering society. This is what I see has been happening in Israel over the past 2 decades. So the work begins with me.

People come up to me often and tell me it's so wonderful that i've been fighting so diligently against my cancer for so long, that I shouldn't give up the battle etc. The words, "Fighting", "War on Cancer" are terms that I simply do not identify with. Even the name in Hebrew for the Israeli Cancer Society is: "The Society for War on Cancer". I am not fighting or battling anything. On the contrary, i'm working to evolve and bring peace and harmony within all the structures of my being in order to balance and bring healing. War creates stress and will only amplify the very thing I am fighting against. Cancer is an expression of something in the body-mind which has lost its balance, if I suppress it, it will find more aggressive and sophisticated ways of returning and attacking the body. If we give power to the positive balancing mechanisms in the body, the cancer with be eradicated from the root. Try to apply that to Israeli Palestinian conflict. We tighten the blockade, and they shoot their missiles farther and stronger... You get the idea.

Cancer came into my life at the age of 30 and had a lot of messages for me. Instead of putting energy into fighting it, or becoming a helpless victim of a serious illness and of the medical establishment, I left the "battle" to the doctors and focused on how this event can bring positive changes to my life. Since then I've altered my diet drastically, ended a long and unfulfilling relationship and opened up to deep insight and faith in the universe and the beautiful people living in it. It enabled me to go deeper into the field of healing with food as a profession and to explore various spiritual practices, meeting amazing healers and medicine men around the world. I still see this cancer as a call for transformation, not a nasty thing to get rid of. I'm doing everything I can to restore balance and harmony in my life, and the more I do it the deeper and more refined the process becomes. I learn more and more about myself and behavioral patters that do not serve my higher purpose.

In the same way, I believe both sides of the unfortunate and ancient conflict in Israel and Palestine must see the opportunity in this situation. Both sides are caught in the ignorant cycle of blaming each other, victimizing and playing the victim, and "I won't stop until he stops", reminding me very much of the way we used to fight as kids. It doesn't work. Problems were never solved by violence and hatred, they only make them worse. We can decide together as human beings living on the same land to see this conflict as an opportunity to grow together, let go of the past and see where we can improve and evolve as a human race. All the money and effort put into war and killing can be put into education, health, organic agriculture and creating workplaces and a high standard of living on both sides. But for some reason, people keep believing politicians when they say war is necessary, just like having doctors tell you what treatment is best for your cancer, when in fact their scope of knowledge is very limited, and only you know what is best for you.

Surgery, chemotherapy and radiation work in the same way as attacking a city full of terrorists with heavy bombing from the air. You will inevitably kill a lot of innocent people and make their lives hell, as well as your own. Alternative methods put an emphasis on strengthening the immune system and restoring harmony to the body and mind so that it simply doesn't need the cancer anymore, and the organism is healed. If we as an Israeli people put more emphasis on how much good we can bring to the world instead of demonstrating our force each time we get pissed off, we won't need to use violence as an outlet for our internal aggression.  Putting energy in the right places, cultivating a new generation of Israelis and Palestinians who are well nourished and feel good about themselves and do have the need to lash out every now and then on an enemy, but rather cooperate and realize what amazing potential we have in turning this region to a paradise desert together.

Healing comes from within, and cannot be resolved by conflict and aggression. This is true for our own bodies, minds, families and for nations at war.

Shalom, Salaam, Peace.

Whatever works

It has been about a month since the beginning of the latest chapter in my journey with cancer. I've received an overwhelming response to my plea for financial aid and managed to raise sufficient funds to cover a good stretch of the way.

But even more exciting is the abundance of useful and inspiring information i've been getting exposed to as a result of being in contact with so many people: some who have experience with cancer themselves or with their loved ones who are able to share useful information on various therapies and remedies, and some who simply apply their expertise and love into various healing methods and are eager to help and give me good, useful information. Of course it can get to be a bit much at times, and some of it has to be filtered, but it's amazing to discover how many useful, non-toxic, clinically proven methods to cure cancer are out there (not just prolong life but actually cure), and one has to find out about them on his/her own because as advanced as our medical system may be, doctors simply will not tell you these things. Either they object to anything outside of their scope of training and knowledge or, as in most cases, they simply don't know and are not interested. This is a whole other issue that has been on my mind lately - if our medical system is dedicated to healing people and saving lives, why does it ignore so many methods and approaches which improve the well being of the patient instead of using drugs and approaches which have failed to cure cancer for decades simplt because they are heavily endorsed by bega drug companies who have more interest in making money from prolonged use of expensive patented drugs than actually healing (if the person is cured, the company doesn't make any more money off him, so why cure him??) . Cancer wards in hospitals are growing all over the world, and statistics now stand on 1 out of every 2 people in the western world who will get cancer at a certain point in their lives. Meanwhile, some people are making a lot of money. There no big money in plant medicine and vitamins. The conclusion is obvious, and we have to inform ourselves of everything that is out there in order to bypass this massive system of misinformation. It is our obligation to question the medical system and its motives, it's our tax money which allows it to exist and it's here for us.

So my motto right now is: Whatever Works. If I can apply it practically, at a reasonable cost and i've read or heard enough reliable information on it - I'm doing it. I have nothing to lose at this point. and as Dr. Lewis Mehl-Madrona, author of : "Coyote Medicine" says a few times throughout that inspiring book: "If it works - it's good medicine". Surpassing the ignorance widespread today in the world of western medicine and going beyond the artificial separations often done by people in the world of alternative therapies, there are no rules here. There is a time for good nutrition, and there is a time for chemotherapy and there is a time for heavy doses of vitamins and there is a time for long periods of meditation and there is a time for all of them together, and this changes all the time. The wisdom is in finding where my own truth lies and at which point I am doing something that no longer serves my higher purpose of healing and when it is time to move on to something else.

For example, with chemotherapy, which obviously is very toxic and damages healthy cells and internal organs, and is recognized even by most Oncologists to be a limited form of therapy, intended on prolonging life, and not healing. However, I wouldn't be sitting here today if it weren't for a nasty dose of Cisplatin, 5FU, Taxol and Carboplatin. It worked very well and improved my quality of life, despite the uncomfortable side effects. However, I knew I couldn't rely on that alone and already applied a large intake of plants and supplements to reduce the side effects and strengthen my immune system. And now it was time to stop, because it wasn't working anymore. It had reached its limit. Now i'm on a new protocol of Chemotherapy called CFVP which is a cocktail made up of: Cyclophosphamide, 5FU, Vincristine and prednisone in very small doses. I get them intravenously once a week and the first one is taken orally every day. The side effects are very mild and are in the form of slight weakness. My hair is growing back and I have a lot of energy during most of my waking hours. I do find I have to sleep more, because these are still drugs that tax the kidneys and the liver and the body needs to expend energy in order to release the toxins from the body.

In the past month, thank to you, I have been able to begin an extensive self-built protocol of cancer treatment including Ozone therapy, Vitamin C IV, herbal medicine, Orthomolecular medicine, Anthroposiphic medicine, Radionics and much more. What I would like to do here on the blog is offer to the world a detailed summary of all the treatments I am doing now, including links, videos and articles so that this information gets to as many people as possible. I have been given the gift of being able to do these therapies from the world. Getting support from so many people across the globe puts responsibility on me to share my healing process with you and give this information out as a service to all.

I still don't know if what I am doing works, because i've only begun. My latest CT from last month showed increasing tumors in my lungs and a possible new growth in my liver. In 2-3 month I will get another CT and see if all these things I have been applying are actually working. The only downside is that I will not be able to discern which of the treatment is the one that actually made a difference. I do not have the privilege now conduct experiments and try only one treatment to see if that is the one which had the effect on the cancer. I'm trying everything now, because I simply want to heal myself and continue living for many years.

So in my next post i'm going to start reviewing it all, stay posted....

Peace, love and harmony to all living beings.

Healing Love

Almost one year since my last blog post here. So what's changed? Well, I still have cancer, but it has evolved, and so have I.

This was a year of chemotherapy, a lot of it. It was a year of deep and meaningful experiences such as having close friends around me at a time of need when it was difficult for me to function physically, feeling the true meaning of community and friendship. It was a time of gradually feeling better in the physical body and gaining more and more strength and confidence to be active and alive in the world, and allow people to enjoy the fruits of what I've been going through these past 3 years. Going deep into my emotional realms and releasing patterns that have been holding me back my whole life. Learning what deep love is, and shattering heartbreak. All of this with the constant uncertainty of cancer threatening to show it's head again and break the gentle equilibrium in the little life I have created for myself.

Little did I know (or do I know now) the magnitude of the life lessons this illness has in store for me. If up until now I was shown by God that it is ok to ask for help and get support from close friends and family, now i'm being taken a level higher - learning to ask for help in the larger sense of the word, including everyone I know and the whole world.

After a brief period of supposed remission, where my CT scans were relatively well behaved, the cancerous tumors in my lungs are flaring up again. I can feel it in my breath a little, but not to the extent of last November. This was a clear signal - chemotherapy is not working anymore, the cells are smart now, they've evolved. What to do? For the past 3 years I always knew there is much more I could be doing to heal this cancer than what I've been doing up until now. I've been implementing everything I know and have researched in the world of nutrition, yoga, meditation practices, herbal medicine, supplements, homeopathy, Chinese medicine, body psychotherapy, energy healing, psychedelics, prayer, positive thinking etc. But anyone who looks deeper into the cancer research that is being conducted today outside of the conventional medical system can see clearly that there are several more aggressive methods out there today that can maybe do a little more than the preventative measures of traditional medicine and a balanced lifestyle, probably as much as chemotherapy and without the nasty side effects.

Now that my health situation is compromised again, I have no choice but to go for the big guns of alternative medicine, and not keep hoping that Miso soup, Wheatgrass juice and daily Asana practice are going to cure me (though I will never stop doing them). After searching and talking to many people I've decided to begin Intravenous Vitamin C treatment, a process where very high doses of Vitamin C are injected into the blood system creating Hydrogen Peroxide in the blood and destroying cancerous cells. Another one is Ozone therapy, a process where a small amount of blood is taken out of the body, charged with Ozone which floods the cells with oxygen, and then put back in the body. The logic behind both these treatments is that as normal cells are aerobic and need oxygen to survive, cancerous cells are anaerobic and die in a heavily oxygenated environment. To these I add an updated arsenal of herbs and supplements that are known to fight cancer and boost the immune system. Since the medical system doesn't acknowledge the benefit of these treatments (which have been proven scientifically in many studies over the past decades), the treatment has to be done privately and at very high cost. (For you Americans out there - Israel has social medicine, so we're used to getting almost all of our medical treatments for free).

So it was clear to me what I had to do. The only way I was going to have enough money to possibly save my life, is to ask for it. Setting aside all my fear of putting myself in the center and being needy, fear of people's reactions etc., I posted a request on the internet to everyone I know, not only the circles of friends who know my story, but absolutely everyone, no limits. I need this help now, and there's no reason to put limits on where it's going to come from. I had a thrust of energy moving me forward to do this as though a strong survival instinct was kicking in. That's exactly what it was. I want to live, and that will is strong enough to break patterns, overcome fears and become open and exposed to the world.

The reaction was unbelievable. Within 48 hours there was enough money to undergo a few months of treatment, and the support keeps flowing. The more support I'm getting the more secure I feel that I have the ability and freedom to explore the use of various types of cancer therapies which can work together in my healing process, and not fear their enormous costs, believing that cancer can be healed and it doesn't have to happen with chemo and radiation alone, which evidently have their limitations.

I feel the world is healing me. People from every corner of the globe, people whom I grew up with and haven't seen me in over 15 years, All of my extended family, people from different stages of my life: High school, military, travels around the world, my amazing family of friends in the Agama community and here in Jerusalem of course and many people who don't even know me (!) all came together to help me. I feel a network of love is sustaining me right now and i'm receiving a huge cosmic hug from humanity. I feel safe in the world. I feel secure knowing that i'm loved and that people are there for each other in real times of need. The power of love should not be underestimated, it is far more powerful than the forces of hate, deception and separation that characterize a lot of what is going on the world today. This love and care of a global community that I am experiencing first hand right now is what our  lives are founded on and is the basis of our human existence. Without a deep notion that we are part of the whole, part of nature and humanity, our minds tend to be fragmented, judgmental and fearful. Fear of the other is against our nature, we are a social creature and need contact in order to survive. This is why we created the internet. It is the current epitome of our social and communicative skills (with its limitations of course). And when I witness how the power of the internet can be utilized in such a way that we can save lives, I come to realize what amazing potential we have as human beings in creating a better world.

I am grateful, full of joy and hope, and thankful to be part of such an amazing global community of friends. My faith in man (and woman) kind has become strongly rooted in my heart. People are GOOD! It's our nature to be good, to love and to care for each other! People make the impossible possible with the power of faith and love!

I love you all.

If you are inclined to help me on this road to health, you can do it here:

http://www.youcaring.com/fundraiser_details?fundraiser_id=9842&url=helpdanielhealcancer